An important revelation.

My fellow deviants and watchers, greetings once more.

I trust everyone is doing well here, enjoying the beauty that is dA. I've missed it a bit.

All right, down to business. So let me tell thee all of what hath transpired with mine work and life. I've gotten a lot of important things done outside of dA, things I should've taken care of years ago. For example, I am a little mired in debt and I neglected to make big payments due to fear of going broke. Not anymore. Now I'm committing to the goal of being debt-free, though I know that's an illusion. One in this modern age will always be in debt to the credit card companies no matter what they do. That's why it's important to maintain control over your debt and make sure it stays at minimal amounts. I recall watching a guest on..........I think it was Ellen DeGeneres' show..........who was over $50 grand in debt and had not even an iota of regret or shame about being so swamped in debt at the age of 17. Yep, she was a teenager, and she didn't give a flying **** about owing $50,000 plus to VISA, Mastercard, and so on. I'm glad I'm not like her in that regard. So now I'm taking care of my debt, but I know I'll always have a little bit to owe.

I've also made dedications to spending more time with my family. Whether it's subconscious or I'm making fully aware attempts at being with my family, I don't know. It's probably both factors. I'm trying to spend less time on the computer, though that's not easy. My life practically is dominated by the computer, but I'm not complaining. At least, not openly just yet. In terms of education, I hit a setback. I wanted to attend CSUSB this year, but a snafu on my part will cause me to miss one whole year. I can't go to CSUSB until next fall! So I have to make a backup plan to make up for the lost time. Work proceeds well; I'm being more active and reliable enough for my bosses to consider me as their first choice if they need extra guys to stay overtime. In short, my life may be progressing and improving slowly, but it is doing so and it's on the right path, I believe. Now for the big part.

I recently spent some time talking with my father over some issues when he stumbled upon something I have never even considered, not even for a single moment. He asked me, "Have you ever considered that you're no longer interested in your art, and that's why you're feeling so lazy that you don't get up and draw or work on your other things?"

I admit I am still a little in shock over this revelation. I thought I knew myself well enough, but apparently, I was wrong. Let me explain. Years ago, I used to take a lot of photos by going out every day and taking my shots. Now I rarely go out and do so. I used to draw dozens of artworks and submit many of them over the course of a week. Now it takes me months just to finish and submit ten or so. I used to write stories, fictional worlds, and other such things with regularity. Now I submit one chapter every two months or so. And the thing is, I want to submit all these things with constant regularity every week. Artworks, photos, and stories galore! I know that's not possible due to my other obligations that I have to fulfill as a citizen of this planet, but I can at least try to get a lot done. But to think that I no longer do as much art, photos, and stories as I used to because I no longer have any interest in them? That is something that never even entered into my brain, not for a second. I'm being seriously honest here; I never even thought of that. That's a little scary, because art is all I really know how to do. What else can I replace it with?

What do you think? I know this is me spouting my personal thoughts and beliefs, as well as my inner battles on the Web, but still, I'd like to hear some opinions. What do you think?